Empowerment, Acceptance, Vision... Now what?

"No one wants or asks to go through trials, but sometimes picking up the pieces & putting yourself back together is how you come to find/ know you". - RCH (3.29.08)


I know it has been awhile and I apologize for letting life get in the way of connecting with you. It's been a rollercoaster ride since my last post, which is far from over, but I am praying to come out on top and to reach my goals, nonetheless...

All I've ever wanted in life was to be happy. I guess I have that in common with everyone else. I'm a simple person and don't ask for much, but what I would like is to be able to stand on my own, go out into the world and pursue the things that I've longed for for so long. Problem is I feel trapped. Like there's no way out of this maze.. I don't know where to begin or where my failure ends. I don't expect a prince or knight to come rescue me. They don't exist.
I do long for someone to prove me wrong... But, I've been trained to be the man and the woman, the mother and the father for so long that I wouldn't fit the role--A damsel in distress I am not. However, I am in distress for want of a better life for myself and my children, but I can't look to companionship/ a relationship as the end of my worries.

I can't put my finger on it... I am alone.
I can't control it... I am alone.
I can't deny it... I am alone.
Loneliness, which has been the norm and the battle that I face within myself as to why I'm in this state to begin with...

I started out writing in order to help you, but it is you who is helping me. As I strive to be all that I hope to be, you let me know that you care and I am not alone in this struggle to mend my broken heart.

Thank you Jennifer, Frederick, Carla, Ranjit & everyone else who has seen me through my words. You inspire me to continue on...

UNTITLED
When I close my eyes

I envision a world much different than my own

A world where I am surrounded

And yet still alone

I sense peace when tranquility passes my way

A stronger sense and urging draws my mind away

I open my eyes and see real life standing

I can't imagine why is it being so demanding

I can cut all ties

Fly away loose and free

But after it's done

Will I still be me?

- RCH (12.18.07)


**My first book of poems can be purchased by clicking the link, "Soul Emotional Vol. 1", on the left. As always I thank you for your continued support & God bless! :)